It’s true. I thought that I would cry last night, but I didn’t. No penguin hugging tears. I think it may have just been sheer exhaustion that prevented the tears, however. Today…I cried. I feel very alone. I have friends. Very close friends that I’ve been talking to throughout this whole ordeal. Yet somehow, I [...]
Posts Tagged ‘heartache’
I Didn’t Cry
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", alone, anger, best friend, broken heart, confusion, emptiness, heartache, hurt, life, Love, misery, missing him, moving on, pain, personal, relationships, sadness on September 2, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
For the First Time In A While
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", heartache, life, Love, missing him, pain, sadness on August 30, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
The other day, for the first time in a while, I thought about “C”, and I started to miss him. It was about two days ago when it first started. I was looking through some pictures that I uploaded onto my new laptop from a flash drive I got from “C” before we broke up. [...]
And Reality Came Crashing In
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", broken heart, goodbyes, heartache, life, Love, pain, personal, reality, sadness on August 18, 2009 | Leave a Comment »
Reality… Last night I was on the computer talking to my most recent ex before “C.” Yes, you heard that right. I’ve been talking to him off and on for a while now. I actually talked to him for the first time, before “C” and I ever broke up this last time. I talked to [...]
I Know It’s Wrong
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", forever, goodbyes, heartache, letting go, life, Love, pain, personal on August 13, 2009 | 1 Comment »
You know the bee that stung me the other day? Yeah well, I sent a text to “C” the day after, with a picture, telling him what happened. He didn’t reply but the next morning, as in yesterday morning, I woke up to find a text on my phone. It was from “C.” It said, [...]
Is Goodbye Really Forever?
Posted in "C", life, tagged "C", conversations, goodbyes, heartache, life, Love, pain, realtionships, thoughts on August 11, 2009 | 1 Comment »
The post I needed to write yesterday… I had the last conversation I will probably ever have with “C” again, at least for a while. I talked to him yesterday at lunch because he called to tell me he wasn’t mad at me and I didn’t do anything wrong. [Sunday I called him in response [...]
Does the Cycle End?
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", friendship, heartache, insane, life, Love, misery, pain, personal on August 9, 2009 | 4 Comments »
This has been a horrible week. All week I’ve walked around in some sort of “haze”, not really sure what’s going on or what should happen next. It’s partially “C” and then partially the fact that school is in two weeks and I’m totally unprepared. I’m constantly on the verge of what feels like either [...]
I Can’t Stop Thinking About Things!
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", heartache, life, Love, misery, missing him, pain, personal, relationships on August 2, 2009 | 4 Comments »
I still can’t get him out of my head. Some days are better than others. Some days are worse… After this breakup [last Saturday], things were automatically different than usual. He seemed more distant and less caring than ever before. I tried talking to him Sunday, just to see if I could maybe figure out [...]
Get Out of My Head
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", goodbyes, heartache, life, Love, misery, pain, relationships on July 30, 2009 | 3 Comments »
Is this what happens when you relationshi[pdon't give up on someone? How am I ever going to be able to trust anyone again? I didn't give up on "C" because he asked me not to, and he promised me in that letter that he wouldn't give up on me. But he did. He gave up [...]
I Hate This
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", goodbyes, heartache, life, Love, pain, personal, relationships on July 30, 2009 | 4 Comments »
It finally happened… I haven’t been updating on my relationship status a lot lately because well, quite frankly, I wasn’t even sure what the status was from one day to the next. “C” and I have broken up and gotten back together many times in the past few months. And it was happening weekly. [...]
I Love You
Posted in "C", life, Love, tagged "C", goodbyes, heartache, hurt, life, Love, personal on July 28, 2009 | 4 Comments »
Sometimes there are things that I really wish people wouldn’t say to me. There are things that fit the phrase, “Better left unsaid” all too well, and this was one of them. It’s not like I didn’t already have enough on my mind. Thanks for adding another crack to my already shattered heart. Thanks for making me cry…again. [...]
